Life Begins at Forty-Six

I know this probably seems a strange statement to read, considering most people these days will tell you life begins at conception, but from my own knowledge, I can attest to you that life doesn’t begin until the age of forty-six. To be even more exact, life begins at forty-six years, six months, five days, and twenty-three hours. So, I expect your next thought (or question) to be, “How did you come to that conclusion?”

Well, there’s a short answer; then there’s a much longer, more detailed, extremely philosophical response, rooted primarily in constructs of Gnosticism and esoterica. The short answer is that 46 years, 6 months, 5 days, and 23 hours was exactly how “old” I was when the light that sparked this blog entry came on. The long answer is the reason why this blog entry doesn’t end here, but continues on to explain the logic of my thesis.

So, yes, I was born on Monday, January 8, 1973 at 5:57 pm EST. Today is Sunday, July 14, 2019, and I actually began writing this at 4:57 pm EDT. That’s “exactly” forty-six years, six months, five days, and twenty-three hours (excusing the folly of daylight savings time) from my birth to the moment my life began.

I would like to propose to you an idea concerning the morality of abortion. While morality, in truth, is a purely subjective matter, the debate of abortion really goes back to the individual belief, or understanding, concerning the beginning of life. Most who are pro-choice view abortion as part of a woman’s right to choose what to do with her own body. Those who consider themselves pro-life generally believe the woman is making a choice concerning a separate living being. What if the pro-choice argument is actually more consistent with how the average person exists, while the pro-life stance holds true to the theology of most individuals? Can these both be true?

Hear me out. While babies are born by the rate globally of about 15,000/hour, I would venture to say that only about 1% of the people ever born have actually lived their lives. These babies are delivered through the wombs of the mothers, but very few ever reach a point of self-awareness where they do much more than exist for their connections to family, friends, communities, religions, cultures, races, and nations. All the average individual ever experiences is existence within a womb, or “the matrix”. While they think they are free moral agents, the reality is that they are puppets, sustained only by their attachment to a proverbial umbilical cord. Everything they say, do, and experience is chosen for them by the world surrounding them.

Life, however, as I view it, doesn’t begin until one realizes his own autonomy as God. Ironically, prior to birth, that is really all a baby knows. Though the baby is within the matrix of the mother, from all it can ascertain, it is the source of all. The baby controls everything, with no assistance from any other source that it is cognizant of. The baby develops, eats, breathes, moves, sees, and hears on its own command. It isn’t until the baby exits the physical matrix that it becomes aware of the metaphysical matrix, and immediately, the baby begins to exist at the discretion of others.

I existed the entire previous 46 years, 6 months, 5 days, and 23 hours for the satisfaction and pleasure of others. Even in my choice to be grateful through it all, that wasn’t living. I entered End Stage Renal Disease on February 14, 1991. I was just eighteen years, one month, five days, and slightly over twelve hours, old. I hadn’t even had a chance to attend prom yet, choose a college, decide on a major, or graduate from high school. Yet, there I was facing the prospect of death; and that became another master unto me. No longer was I just existing for the pleasure of my family and community, but I also was then existing to outrun mortality.

I reached a point when I became consumed with just not being dead; especially being twenty-three years past my life-expectancy. I was in such a hurry to “live” before I ran out of time that I had failed to actually live. I was doing everything I could to enjoy life as it had been portrayed for me, and I missed the evidence that I AM God; the true and living God. My ignorance of my own being kept me trapped in the maze of doing what everyone else told me I should be doing… and all that was doing was robbing myself of life. I was trying to possess my existence rather than experience my divinity.

All along, most of the people I felt umbilically attached to, metaphorically, are not people I can call on when I AM in need. Some would like to “blame” me for them not being reliable, but no one is to blame or praise. I have, however, accepted accountability today for continuing to maintain attachments to individuals who I AM just not connected to. In my self-awareness, I finally accept that I have NO biological family. I have people whom I share a close DNA match to, but they don’t fit the definition of family. However, I had spent the past forty-six and a half years existing to be accepted by a matrix that was only intended to provided my gestation.

So, today, my life begins. Today, I AM refusing to remain in the womb of comfort any longer. Today, I AM taking the bull by the horns, and by the power I AM, commanding my Universe as only the God I AM can. I have been an absentee creator for far too long, and my Universe has the chaos to prove it. But today, as I AM born again, I AM preparing myself for a kidney transplant, and to manifest all of my greatest imaginations, because I AM him who is able to do exceeding abundantly above all I can ask or think according to the power I AM. I AM not accepting sympathy or pity. I AM only accepting love and victory… because my name is Victory!

Life, for me, begins at forty-six. Death died today, and eternal life is come. I AM risen with all power in my hands, so I say it is high time that I worship the lamb who was slain, but lives! Worthy is the lamb. I AM the lamb, and I finally can hear all the angels crying “Holy! Holy! Holy!”

You Did It to Yourself

All triggers are subjective. I AM not reacting to what someone else did. I AM reacting to my own ego. What I perceive to be a trigger is really a symptom of a disease in me; not in the other person. As long as my focus is on what someone else did to “cause” my behavior, I will never experience healing. Deflection is easier for me though, because I don’t have to take accountability for my life. That, however, is no different from religion in that all power is perceived to be exclusive of the self.

Our salvation comes by way of us returning to singleness of vision. It is this false perception of duality, purveyed in the general consensus of society, that continues to emblazon the ego. The choice to view the world as allopathic, rather than homeopathic, places the burden of healing on external forces, and this is the root of idolatry.

Even in the shift towards contemporary consciousness, the focus is still primarily idolatrous. Everyone is in search of a messiah- a savior apart from themselves to come down from the sky and rescue them from the pain they have perceived as being the work of some satan, or adversary, they have failed to recognize is none other than the self. So, instead of waiting on Jesus, the “woke” are waiting on the ancestors, the spirit guides, and the ascended masters, as if these are any less creations of the subjective imagination than the Gods of the TaNaKh, Bible, and Quran.

All true healing is self-healing. The whole of man is a homeostatic organism. The Universe is one, and we are each The Universe studying the experience of itself. The task is to save the self, not the world. It is the quest to save the world, or be saved from the world, that keeps us from the fullness of self-realization. Even in the highest of the four worlds that make up the tree of life, Atzilut, there is nothing but the emanation of the I AM that I AM. At this point of conception, there is no longer anything but love. All judgment ceases, and the fullness of being is accomplished.

The New Sons of Liberty

There was a 6.6 magnitude earthquake in California today. This nation was founded on July 4, 1776: a universal 5 day, of a universal 1 month, in a universal 3 year. Today, July 4, 2019 is a universal 5 day, of a universal 1 month, in a universal 3 year. An earthquake is essentially a shaking of the tectonic plates which support an area or region. Keep in mind the principle of as above, so below.

Many get so hung up on the historical record of certain events that they miss the much greater spiritual significance to what is taken place. The United States of America declared its independence from Great Britain under the guise of religious freedom, but in reality it was all a rouse. While there was no longer a single faith institution in power in this new nation, there has still been a strong bondage existing that limited the freedom of the people

5 is the frequency of shifting and change. 1 is the frequency of new beginnings. 3 carries the energy of divine creativity. 5+1+3=9, or birthing. 6.6 (or 6+6) = 12/3. There is a great transition taking place in this moment. A transition that will see many set free from the bondage of the old system. Political correctness is the new slave master, and the political system can not tolerate the refusal to tow the line by the current president. This has become a society of thought police. Instead of freedom, the status quo has been one of bondage to making others happy.

The foundation of the world that is being shaken is bringing about a new form of civil disobedience. There is an anarchy rising up that seeks to overthrow human government by adherence to the law of love. The failing regime of legality is experiencing chaos so that love, the highest frequency of The Universe, can once again rule. This revolution is not one of egotistical wars. No! This revolution is solely about individual manumission. The new sons (and daughters) of liberty are not in pursuit of freedom of religion, but wholly freedom from religion.

Religion, at its etymological root, is to bind. What has been before is a single person would imagine a rule, find others to agree with him concerning the rule, then bind all others to observe that rule, simply because some semblance of a majority decided it would be right for everyone. That is nothing but mutually agreed upon slavery; where both the slaves and slave masters have chosen to adhere to the institution of power.

The truth, however, is everyone’s God is wholly within. The only true government is self-government, but without self-love that government always falls. Once men and women are free to love themselves as they are, it becomes second nature to love all others just the same. The problem is that the judgment cast upon one lends to that one casting judgment on all others in like manner. It’s high time for the God within to arise, and all Its enemies to be scattered.

Yes, there is a great shaking taking place, but it’s only just begun. No, the revolution will not be televised; nor will it be witnessed in social media. The revolutionary war is taking place within every man, woman, boy, and girl, and the battle cry, once again, is “Give me liberty or give me death!”

You Are Not Responsible For Their Comfort

How many of you have seen the 2008 film “Welcome Home Roscoe Jenkins” starring Martin Lawrence? When it first came out, I loved it. When I saw it recently, I hated it. It represented to me the confinement of familiarity often experienced amongst family and longtime “friends”. I understand Bianca was rather pretentious, but I also saw it as she fit where Roscoe had evolved to. I don’t see who RJ had become a result of her influence. I see her being in his life a result of who he had become.

Sadly, in our culture, no matter what we achieve, we are expected to be the same person we were formed into being by our surroundings. That’s why they had issues with “RJ”. He had changed. They were used to Roscoe doing whatever made everyone else happy. He’d been practically bullied for years by his brother and sister, and even his cousin, but when he stood up for himself, he was made to be the bad guy.

Though, in the film, Roscoe gave into the pressure of regression, I AM just not for trying to fit into anyone’s boxes anymore. I love the people from my past, and I accept them for who they are. I know that me being around them, though, would just be more of the status quo. I AM completely happy being “RJ”, and I don’t need anyone trying to bring “Roscoe” back. I AM not competing with anyone for approval. Even the metamorphosis of a caterpillar becoming a butterfly is a picture of our evolution, and if we choose to not fly because those who only know crawling cannot understand us, we have no one to blame but ourselves for our pain.

I AM allowed to outgrow my family and hometown. You are allowed to outgrow your family and hometown. Especially as highly evolved spiritual beings, you cannot really have an expectation of being accepted as you are by people who are only comfortable with who you were. It’s not an indictment against them at all. We just happen to be on extremely different frequencies. It is absolutely true that a prophet is not without honor except in his own hometown, and amongst his own kin. Once you can no longer fit into the box others prepared for you, they tend to become uncomfortable with you, and look for ways to put you back into that box. Rather than shrink yourself for their comfort, enlarge your borders for the happiness of the God within you. Just because society created a picture of what the standard for family and community must be doesn’t mean you have to accept it as your truth.

It is simply childish to talk, think, and reason only as others have told you that you must, and at some point, you must decide to grow up, and establish your own significance and identity. Sometimes that means you have to tell people you love “Fuck you!”

Wolves in Sheep’s Clothing

There are imposters who have sought out many to extort money from. I have seen many, masquerading as priests of Ifa, pursuing the inept under the guise of imaginary curses, and those who are ignorant of their own power are being duped into spending money with these supposed practitioners, trying to gain protection, healing, and deliverance.

Those familiar with the traditions of our Yoruba ancestors, and the true lifestyle of Ifa know that no Babalawo seeks out initiates. I have returned to several the predatory energy that have approached me with. These people are no different than the founders of the Judeo-Christian traditions, except instead of pushing a fear of a future hell, they preach of evils that will befall you now. Remember beloved, you are creating your reality. No one outside of you has any power to curse you. If you are cursed, it is of your own doing, just as your healing will be.

There are so many in the earth seeking to capitalize on this new affinity for the ancient paths, and they are propagating fear to gain subjects. I understand many desire to do things differently, but beware of those who exhibit a desire to create a codependency in you that you are unable to weld your own power to correct any area of your life that is out of alignment. Any true spiritual practitioner will seek to empower you to perfectly love yourself as you are. That perfect love casts out all fear. Anyone who bases their practices on sparking fright in you is existing beneath the fifth dimension, and you don’t want to be giving all your money or energy to any entity beneath the heavenly dimensions. As you do, you only keep yourself bound to this temporal realm.

Prison Earth

Borders and walls are just egotistical men’s attempts to further the dualism illusion that we are separate from one another. It begins with the idea that there is a God who is good, and humans are evil, then that there are clergy who are right, and laity who are wrong, then proceeds on to nationalism and arrogant pride, where one faction of people preposterously believes they own a portion of the earth, and can determine who else is worthy to share in that land.

Believe it or not, police are just agents of that system, meant to turn all men against one another. The places in the world with the fewest police also have the least crime. I actually have some police officers who are some of my favorite people, yet in a free world, there are no borders, and no police. Only prisons and plantations require either, and that is exactly what our planet has become. Someone has to be responsible for keeping the inmates and slaves in line. By “in line”, I mean separated from their own inherent divinity, and subjected to the tyrannical illusions of religion and government.

In a mature world, love is the only rule. It is also the only debt. Everything is actually in abundance where love is, but the illusion of scarcity, further perpetuated by the fallacy of duality has made men enemies of one another. This is the catalyst for boundaries and laws, as the liberty naturally present in our autonomous divinity is veiled under the guise of egoism and pride. Even cultural and national pride are but byproducts of the institutionalization of the earth dimension.

Now, everyone is trying to attach to certain constructs, akin to street gangs, for the purpose of survival. However, when you understand that you are eternal, survival instincts vanish. You are able to fully love yourself without fear of judgment or condemnation, and love all others in that same manner. Take away the government, and the false idea that they are necessary and fit to rule over everyone else, and you find the freedom to enjoy the infinite lushness of our Universe, without concern that someone is taking something away from you that you have a right to; and no one is better at that than religions and governments.

Stop Sacrificing Your Soul

Martyrdom and sacrifice are the inventions of those who seek to enslave the gods. They created the concepts to rob you of your self-sufficiency. You are the true and living God, and your kingdom is within you.

Love is not laying your life down for your friends. Love is accepting yourself as perfect without expectation, and extending that same acceptance to all others without any expectation.

Your significance is not dependent upon who you save or help. You are completely significant in your creation, and only lose it when you feel obligated to conform and compromise for the benefit of others.

If the world would be healed, it requires that the heaven within our bodies, and the earth which our bodies are become one again. We have to break free from the ego which relies on the approval of the world, for in gaining the world’s acceptance through martyrdom and sacrifice, you lose your own soul.

The God Deception

There is NO personified God. The word God is of Germanic origin, stemming originally from the Hebrew word Gad, meaning “a troop”. If one was to read the Bible as it is written, instead of as it was translated by men with a monotheistic, religious agenda, it would be discovered that אלוהים, the word translated as God in the TANaKh (Old Testament) is in various other places also translated as “sons of God”, and even “angels” when the monotheistic agenda was clearly defied in the text.

The word אלוהים (ēlôhīm) is a plural word in EVERY instance in which it appears in the Hebrew-Aramaic language. Gods are created just as is everything else in The Universe. The word ēlôhīm actually, literally, means “powers”. This is why all the cultures preceding the Hebrew mythos, and most others after the Biblical origin except for modern societies, understood the sun, moon, stars, and planets to be Gods. They recognized the influence these beings had on all other life.

Yes, there is an Infinite Creative Source, but that Source is not God. Nor is that Source knowable, as it is invisible and impersonal. The Gods that mortals have personal relationships with are simply created beings who have achieved self-mastery through perfect alignment with nature, and thus are able to rule over those whom choose not to create their own self-mastery.

Our thoughts are our Most High God. We each create our own lives with our thoughts. It is ignorance of this truth that keeps most humans enslaved to ideas of an external God and judge who defines right and wrong, good and evil for all men. It is actually my extensive study and understanding of the Bible that brought me to the point of being an atheist.

I AM an atheist in the purest sense of the word though. I AM fully aware that there is a Creative Source. However, I AM also aware that this Creative Source is not a sentient being. Actually, and well studied clergyman is also well aware of these truths. This is why seminary training is greatly frowned upon in much of, especially evangelical, Christianity.

Every individual who has fully matriculated through a real seminary has become one of two things. They are now either a former Christian, or they are a Christian oppressor, using occult (hidden) knowledge to manipulate the lives of the people they are leading. The objective of the entire idea of a personified Creator God is to instill the fear of judgment on all humanity, though the Bible itself declares that perfect love casts out all fear.

God, in its modern context, was invented to keep the people in conformity to a set of rules established for them by people who stand to profit from keeping the rest of the people ignorant of their own divinity. Knowledge makes a man unfit to be a slave, thus the only way for one man to maintain lordship over another is to replace his knowledge of self with belief in something he has never seen.

True Righteousness

Most would see a woman in a long white dress and hat, who is always in church, and believe she is holy. All the truly holy and righteous women I know will cuss your ass out if you try to judge or condemn them, and still feed the whole neighborhood while feeding their own family.

True holiness is integrity to your own soul, forsaking conformity to what pleases someone else, and real righteousness is doing what is right for your own happiness without regard for other people’s perceptions.

There is a god(dess) within you, and that god(dess) is concerned about your eternal happiness above all else. The law for you is written upon your innermost being, not in any book; and to transgress against that law is sin. The only thing that will send you to hell is trespassing on your own liberty, and that he’ll is present and real.

You can escape torment by living in your truth, no matter who doesn’t like it. Let the God within you be true, and every other man a liar. If you are going to repent at all, may it be to the divine presence within you. That creates in you the perfect love that casts out all fear, and the peace that passes understanding.

Armageddon is a Battle Within

Satan never MADE anyone do anything. Satan actually did the thing himself or herself… because each of us is the very adversary the Bible speaks of in our own lives. We are also the true and living power (God) of our own lives though.

As it is written, on behalf of Ēl, my people perish for the lack of knowledge. It IS important to KNOW what is actually written in any text you wish to use to govern your life. You cannot be content to just BELIEVE what someone else told you is written in it.

You use words in contexts foreign to the understanding of those who wrote that which you claim to follow, and then wonder why you are not seeing the things written of therein. Well, it’s because you haven’t accepted the failure of your faith yet. In classic insanity form, you keep doing the same thing repeatedly, expecting a different result.

Step one to achieving salvation is to get wisdom. Wisdom is the principle thing. So, get wisdom, and in all your getting, get understanding. Wisdom is experiential knowledge, but after each experience, there remains a need to process what you learned. This will help correct the erroneous beliefs you previously held.

Step two is repentance. Not repentance in the sense religion taught you. NO, NO, NO. Repentance is not godly sorrow. Repentance is gratitude for the self-knowledge attained through every situation, and a return to the true self revealed in the midst of that occurrence. You are simply acknowledging how you have been your own enemy, and choosing to be your own power instead.

Step three is acceptance in perfect love. The problem many people run into after coming into an understanding of their true selves, and returning to their true selves, is the weight of other people’s judgment. This contention often leads people to the feeling that they were “better off dead” in trespasses (violating the law within them trying to please others) and sins (believing the lies of their egos). This is when it is most important to reject every voice contrary to the voice of God within YOU.

This is deliverance from the adversary. This is redemption from the world. You don’t need a messiah or a place called heaven for any of this. All of this is, and always has been, within you. You just have to cast off conformity to the world around you, and be transformed by returning to your own righteous mind within you.

The devil is a liar and a deceiver too. God is not through blessing you. The devil is the lower self within you, and God is your highest self. It’s really that simple.

Stop Sinning and Keeping People From Finding God

Let me give you one of the clearest examples of sin against another person. When someone makes a declaration about themselves, and you come along to try to change their truth, that is unrighteousness.

If a woman says “My life sucks”, and you say to her “Your life doesn’t suck. That’s a lie.”, you have just sinned against her, no matter how pure you feel your intentions are.

Any attempt to change another person is, in fact, wickedness. Every man and woman is created in the זלם ודמות (image and likeness) of the God within them. All you are trying to do is recreate them in your image and likeness.

Stop doing that. We have to allow every man and woman to do the work of repentance; returning to their own inherent divinity, and saving themselves from the bondage of the world’s indoctrination.

It is only out of the abundance of one’s own heart that his or her mouth speaks, and it is out of that same heart that flow the issues of life. You disagreeing with one’s own self-assessment, no matter how dysfunctional you perceive it to be, is just trying to replace one indoctrination for another. Let them find God for themselves; and everyone who has ever truly encountered God, did it when they were left all alone.

When Your Faith Is Confronted With Facts

As a preacher, I blamed the reality of much older accounts within more ancient cultures of the exact same stories recorded in the Bible on the devil. The only explanation I could come up with to hold onto my religious beliefs in the face of these facts was to say Satan, with foreknowledge of what would later happen, revealed these things to the Sumerians, Akkadians, and others.

What is the excuse today for dismissing the truth that nearly every civilization that long predates Biblical culture has the same mythos, with just names changed? In 2019, with all the knowledge available to us, how is it refuted that the Bible is little more than a plagiarized amalgamation of various ancient near eastern cultural mythologies, including the story of Jesus?

How do “we” continue to ignore the historical truth of the Nicean councils, the Flavius families, Marcion of Sinope, and the Piso family? There is so much historical evidence to dismiss the Bible as the word of God, yet none to validate the existence of the characters written therein. Maybe it’s time for us to finally accept the role religion (as well as nationalism and culture) has played in the destruction of society. Maybe we need to finally loose ourselves from the shackles of Biblical based fear, and acknowledge that we fell for the agenda to subdue us, and turn us into egoistic judges of good and evil. Even the Bible itself tells you that without its commands you wouldn’t know sin.

Why Anarchy?

The greatest travesty of nationhood is that, just as religion, it unwittingly strips the individual of his autonomy, and enslaves him under a guise of gross conformity dressed as interdependence. Interdependence has been proven to be a farce, for in its system, all are required to die as martyrs. None are free to live to themselves, and by it, the entire earth has become a prison.

The soul and ego are two vastly different energy forms. The soul is powered completely by love, and seeks to only experience all. In experiencing The All, without a desire for control, what the soul learns is how to interact with itself. The soul finds beauty and enjoyment in every experience, recognizing that all that is is itself, and everything it perceives is just different manifestations of its divinity and glory.

The ego, however, is fueled exclusively by judgment. Because of this foundation upon which the ego exists, its significance is only found in that which it judges as right and good. The ego doesn’t see itself in anything, and thus feels a need to possess everything. It lives under a delusion of disconnection. This delusion brings the soul to a need for attachment. It tries to subject everything to its power, even the earth.

We were never meant to study our surroundings for mastery. We are intended to research them, in love, with the goal of understanding in mind. At some point in the history of mankind, the ego overtook the soul, and we stopped our pursuit of oneness and coexistence, and instead replaced it with desires for supremacy and conformity.

The Bible blames the divisive downfall on the men having one mind to get to a place called heaven. It’s just extremely ironic that the vast majority of religions today are demanding your conformity to rules they claim were put in place by their gods, just so you can get to this place that man had supposedly once before attempted to reach when they were as one. Yet, they were supposedly separated from one another, and lost the ability to communicate because they had one mind to get to this place called heaven.

Basically, this is an allegorical alliteration of how nations were formed. The ego overwhelmed the soul, and men began to notice the differences between them, and forgot the beauty of reflective commonality they shared via the soul. The ego then sought to rule over lands and peoples, and thus they created laws. These laws sought to force the rest of men to obey the egos of one or a few, and strip men of their freedom to be as their souls were.

It was these laws that made men aware of the idea of sin, as foreign as it is to the soul. The problem became, though, that sin had no standard weight of measurement. It varied from family to family, tribe to tribe, culture to culture, and nation to nation, usually based solely upon the will of the one whose ego asserted itself as most dominant. Then, as men began to judge one another based upon the laws of ego, that demanded conformity to the standards they themselves has set as right and good.

As men stopped living by their souls, the ego began to see other men as enemies, and that sight led men to attempt to possess those enemies. The perceived enemies they were unable to possess by suggestive conformity, they attempted to possess by acts of violence. When they couldn’t possess them through robbery and rape, they began to murder them. And thus, wickedness was born.

It is human government that created chaos, and then the same human governments have been expected to control the very chaos they created. They cannot control it, and the fact of the matter is they have no desire to control it. The only way to control it is to give up the desire for control. The world must experience a great reformation; a repentance of massive proportions. But not a religious revolution. Fuck no! Religions are just another form of human government, by which the human masters blame the demanded conformity on fictional gods whom no one else has seen. That way the people become fearful of disobeying “God”, rather than empowered enough to love themselves unconditionally, exclusive of the demands of the human masters.

The egotistical rulers were brilliant in their strategy. This ensured that the people would not revolt against them, even if they didn’t fear their government. They wouldn’t revolt against them because they feared the god they had invented. None of us needs a king, not even King Jesus. Hell, the TaNaKh even says so itself. Read Jeremiah 31:30-33 when you find time. Within each of us is our own government, and that government is our own souls. When we are free to simply love ourselves as we are, we also love all other things, both living and inanimate, as they are. And that love restores in us the oneness as it was in the beginning. Borders and boundaries disappear as freedom is realized. There are no more chains. There is no more fear. There is no more judgment. The ego is returned to its proper balance, and repentance is fulfilled.

This is the only way the many return to The One. This is the only way The Omniversal Multiverse becomes again The Universe. But it all begins with the simply step of men being truly free to experience and be experienced, rather than to possess and be possessed. I love you too much to try to control who you are. I need you to be the divine wildflower you were created to be. And the truth is, everything natural is wild. Only that overly affected by the ego becomes tamed and cultivated, and that shit is about as hybrid and GMO as it gets.

My Happy Place

Just thought to share with you all a photo of a place that makes me happy. I AM the place that makes me happy. My happy place has no fixed address.

What if I told you that I AM my father’s house, in which are many mansions? The mansions are all the inherent divinity gifts and instructions within me.

The more I come to know myself, the more mansion doors that are unlocked. As more doors are unlocked, I AM free to go in, and take possession of each.

I AM the door. If anyone come in by any other way, he is a thief and a robber. So, I have learned to be sober, so that no man can come in unawares, and burglarize my happy place.

Love, Judgment, Karma, and Repentance

Honestly, if you truly love someone, you will not tell them how to live their lives, or who to be. Love is not trying to change people into the image you have cast for them. That is judgment that who he or she chooses to be is wrong, and the frequency of judgment transmitted only brings back the same signal of judgment.

Love is accepting others for who they choose to be. If an individual freely chooses to no longer lives life as they have, that is their right to do so. However, if you influence them to make that choice, you have become their lord and master, and then you become accountable for whatever occurs as a result.

That’s the energetic truth of being a judge of others. You are allowing your perception of the situation to pull your heart strings, but you are supposed to be master of your own soul. What one chooses to do is neither right nor wrong, until it is not bringing them what they desire for their own lives.

You cannot decide right and wrong for anyone but self. I know we all have been indoctrinated, almost from birth, to label and judge based on our own subjection to ego, but if any of us will be saved, it is from judgment, not from a make-believe Hell.

Begin to vibrate exclusively on the frequency of love, and watch how you begin to become master of your own life. Yes, there will be situations you perceive which may impact your emotions, but do not allow those emotions to distract you from your accountability for creating the life you desire.

Resistance is futile. Let people live. All this attempting to change who people are in just you asserting yourself as their god(dess), when their god(dess) dwells exclusively within them. Their god(dess) will guide them into their truth.

Karma is the teacher to get each of us to return to our own truths. You’re really only blocking people’s repentance by telling them what they should believe about themselves. Their instructions are written upon their innermost being. If you would lead them to anything, let it be to themselves.

Stop Objectifying Love

You all put a weight of responsibility for your happiness on other people. You get in relationships with people who may not share all the same likes as you, then expect them to conform to your wishes. I used to be there, and married someone because I thought we had a lot in common.

What’s funny is all those things we thought we had in common were absent from our marriage. We never went to a football game together. Never went to a basketball game together. All I did was lose myself trying to help her do her hair, and running her bath water, and things of that sort.

We enjoyed a lot of great times, but in the end, we realized all either of us did was cause ourselves pain, thinking we were responsible for making each other happy. The great lesson of it all is that today my happiness is exclusively created by me.

A relationship doesn’t mean you have to do everything together. It means that those things that are manifestations of your individual self-love, that are common to both of you, get to be enjoyed together.

I like sports. Dominique doesn’t. Instead of me trying to get her to go with me to a basketball game, I can get friends who enjoy basketball to go with me, while she does something she enjoys that I don’t particularly care for. Or, the basketball game can be my me time.

You all don’t know how to experience others. You are consumed with the idea of possessing your mates and your children, and end up driving people away by demanding of them this conformity to your world, when your world’s can co-exist.

Love is acceptance. There is no control is love. Love isn’t martyrdom either. Stop feeling like you have to compromise yourself for the sake of a relationship. That shit will kill you, and despite Christian opinion, you didn’t come here to die for someone else to live.

Your responsibility is to live your best life. You ought to spend your time with someone who is living their best life as well. Otherwise, you will find yourself old, and miserable one day, knowing everyone around you, but not knowing yourself at all.

The Faith Farce

I AM amazed at the testimonies of Christians who escape disasters, as attributing it to their faith in God. There was a tornado back home, and several people died. The response to their own survival was that their belief spared them. The hypocrisy of that is that they judge those who died as not having faith, or having less faith than them.

Some of these same people have had family members and friends, even parents or spouses, who believed just like them, and even prayed more than them, and still died of cancer, organ failure, and other diseases. So what? Did their faith fail? Were they not good enough to have lived without illness, or avoid death in natural disasters?

Faith is the most divisive concept known to man. Faith is borne out of the ego, and causes men to see themselves as right and good, and those not possessing the same faith as wrong and evil. It is faith that instigates wars, provokes murders, and instigates the pillaging of nations. All because some people have this idea that their faith justifies them, while others are disqualified from liberty and justice because they don’t have faith.

Well, it’s high time we awaken from the illusion of faith, and return to the knowledge of self. Only that knowledge is able to restore the love that the world is so desperately in need of to enjoy the peace and joy we have all been created for.

Control is Unrighteousness

הִנֵּ֛ה יָמִ֥ים בָּאִ֖ים נְאֻם־יְהוָ֑ה וְכָרַתִּ֗י אֶת־בֵּ֧ית יִשְׂרָאֵ֛ל וְאֶת־בֵּ֥ית יְהוּדָ֖ה בְּרִ֥ית חֲדָשָֽׁה׃

See, a time is coming—declares the LORD—when I will make a new covenant with the House of Israel and the House of Judah.

לֹ֣א כַבְּרִ֗ית אֲשֶׁ֤ר כָּרַ֙תִּי֙ אֶת־אֲבוֹתָ֔ם בְּיוֹם֙ הֶחֱזִיקִ֣י בְיָדָ֔ם לְהוֹצִיאָ֖ם מֵאֶ֖רֶץ מִצְרָ֑יִם אֲשֶׁר־הֵ֜מָּה הֵפֵ֣רוּ אֶת־בְּרִיתִ֗י וְאָנֹכִ֛י בָּעַ֥לְתִּי בָ֖ם נְאֻם־יְהוָֽה׃

It will not be like the covenant I made with their fathers, when I took them by the hand to lead them out of the land of Egypt, a covenant which they broke, though I espoused them—declares the LORD.

כִּ֣י זֹ֣את הַבְּרִ֡ית אֲשֶׁ֣ר אֶכְרֹת֩ אֶת־בֵּ֨ית יִשְׂרָאֵ֜ל אַחֲרֵ֨י הַיָּמִ֤ים הָהֵם֙ נְאֻם־יְהוָ֔ה נָתַ֤תִּי אֶת־תּֽוֹרָתִי֙ בְּקִרְבָּ֔ם וְעַל־לִבָּ֖ם אֶכְתֲּבֶ֑נָּה וְהָיִ֤יתִי לָהֶם֙ לֵֽאלֹהִ֔ים וְהֵ֖מָּה יִֽהְיוּ־לִ֥י לְעָֽם׃

But such is the covenant I will make with the House of Israel after these days—declares the LORD: I will put My Teaching into their inmost being and inscribe it upon their hearts. Then I will be their God, and they shall be My people.

וְלֹ֧א יְלַמְּד֣וּ ע֗וֹד אִ֣ישׁ אֶת־רֵעֵ֜הוּ וְאִ֤ישׁ אֶת־אָחִיו֙ לֵאמֹ֔ר דְּע֖וּ אֶת־יְהוָ֑ה כִּֽי־כוּלָּם֩ יֵדְע֨וּ אוֹתִ֜י לְמִקְטַנָּ֤ם וְעַד־גְּדוֹלָם֙ נְאֻם־יְהוָ֔ה כִּ֤י אֶסְלַח֙ לַֽעֲוֺנָ֔ם וּלְחַטָּאתָ֖ם לֹ֥א אֶזְכָּר־עֽוֹד׃ (ס)

No longer will they need to teach one another and say to one another, “Heed the LORD”; for all of them, from the least of them to the greatest, shall heed Me—declares the LORD. For I will forgive their iniquities, And remember their sins no more.

Attempts to change anything other than myself from what I have become to who I AM is unrighteousness. Who I AM is infallible. Who I have become is a sinner.

What makes who I became a sinner? Well, sin is missing the mark. It is transgression against the law of God. The only real law of God is self-love, and to love others as I love myself.

Contrary to popular religious teachings, none of us were born in sin. We have been, however, shaped in iniquity. We were taught to despise ourselves, and who we are, from birth, is divine beings, existing in natural perfection.

At birth, we were ruled only by nature. Our own nature dominated our entire existence, but because those who came before us had already been indoctrinated to contend with nature, they immediately began to enforce the same control upon us.

We were not allowed to evolve from within, as all other created things do. No; as humans, we presumed ourselves to be greater than nature, so we began to exert our egos, and judge what is right or wrong; good or evil.

In judging nature, we also judged ourselves, and now we are witnessing nature reassert herself in her power. She does as she pleases, despite humanity’s attempts to put restraints on her.

Earthquakes happen to show us that we cannot control her. Yet, we still try to judge her as wrong when we mourn the devastation caused. Tornadoes occur to remind us that nature is autonomous. And we continue to esteem her as evil by grieving over the lives lost.

How long before we stop resisting our own power? When will the day come that we all repent? Turn back to our true selves, which is gods and goddesses within whom is individual sovereignty? If we love God, which is within us, we will obey its commands.

It is not the commands of men written in books, pretending to be the words of God that we are to obey. That is idolatry. The TaNaKh itself even tells us of the real new covenant. It had nothing to do with one man coming to die for the sins of the whole world.

The new covenant is that the law is written upon the innermost being of every man, woman, and child that no one will have need for anyone else to teach them.

So, if we are to truly love It which causes to me our power with all our heart, soul, and strength, we must first realize that It (erroneously translated in English bibles as “the Lord your God”) is within us all, and It has a law for each of us inextricable of our own souls. Then, we must obey the God within ourselves above any other gods of any other religions, cultures, governments, prisons, or schools.

As it is written of Kepha and Yochanon (Peter and John), we would rather obey God than man, but remember, God is within you.

May 26- June 1 Numerology

Sunday, May 26, 2019

0+5+2+6+2+0+1+9=25/ 2+5=7

Monday, May 27, 2019

0+5+2+7+2+0+1+9=26/ 2+6=8

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

0+5+2+8+2+0+1+9=27/ 2+7=9

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

0+5+2+9+2+0+1+9=28/ 2+8=10/ 1+0=1

Thursday, May 30, 2019

0+5+3+0+2+0+1+9=29/ 2+9=11/2

Friday, May 31, 2019

0+5+3+1+2+0+1+9=30/ 3+0=3

Saturday, June 1, 2019

0+6+0+1+2+0+1+9=19/ 1+9=10/ 1+0=1

7+8+9+1+11+3+1=40/ 4+0=4

7+8+9+1+2+3+1=31/ 3+1=4

The number 4 is a number of “being”, it is the number that connects mind-body-spirit with the physical world of structure and organization.

Four symbolizes the safety and security of home, the need for stability and strength on a solid foundation of values and beliefs.

The spiritual nature of number four calls in the need for having or creating a sacred space and sanctuary in your home, a place to meditate and build your innermost foundation of strength and being.

The symbolic meaning of number Four deals with stability and invokes the grounded nature of all things.

Consider the four seasons, four directions, four elements all these amazingly powerful essences wrapped up in the nice square package of Four. Fours represent solidity, calmness, and home.

A recurrence of Four in your life may signify the need to get back to your roots, center yourself, or even “plant” yourself. Fours also indicate a need for persistence and endurance.

This week, work on rediscovering your stability by establishing foundations through your daily routines. Monday is a universal 8 day, so you should focus on creating consistency in your business and finances. Wednesday and Saturday are both universal 1 days, so those are your best days for new beginnings. Take those days to start solid new practices in your life that produce the results you seek. Thursday is an 11 day, so you should take that day to build reliability in your health.

World Without End

It is said that the circumference of the earth is 24,901 miles. Ignore the pointless arguments of whether earth is round or flat, or if man has ever actually been to outer space, but have you ever stopped to logically think about who measured the earth?

Measurements are human inventions. No one has ever taken a tape measure and wrapped it around the earth to determine its size. So what was the motive behind coming up with this number? Whose agenda was it to do so?

We have people trying to control the population with ideas of scarcity that provoke fear in the hearts of men. They gave you maps, and established boundaries to instigate division and rivalries, and for what?

So, now the powers that be attempt to dissuade people from their power, and have convinced many to perceive themselves as dependent upon “the system”. You have been bamboozled into believing the earth is limited, so you see others as your competition.

How long has religion been telling you the end of the world is coming? They even interlaced their divination with safeguards for when you would awaken, and begin to question it. They told you that just when you least expect it, the end will come. So, instead of you returning to your power, you are too caught up in trying to make sure you are ready for the end.

All the lack, scarcity, and famine the world has ever known has been the result of a calculated agenda to keep the people subdued with fear. The truth is that the earth is alive, and will never stop growing.

So, cast of your fear by embracing perfect love. Stop allowing others to convince you that you are greedy or selfish for wanting more. There’s plenty for everyone to be abundant, but if everyone is abundant, no one will be able to rule over anyone else, and the egotistical of the world, would die of misery.

The Alchemy of Reciprocity

I keep telling people to stop seeing pastors as charlatans and wolves. Having been in ministry myself for nearly two decades, it is definitely an energy exchange at work. The masses fail to see money as cyclical

👉🏿currency👈🏿, so they are fighting under the influence of the illusion of scarcity, not realizing it’s all just alchemy.

Your money is a seed, the prayers are the magical spell that transmute your seeds into the harvest you desire. If you have an issue with paying, learn to do for yourself what it is you expect spiritual practitioners to do for you.

When I tapped into my Akashic records, and discovered I AM Moshe, I came to understand how I became king of Israel. The people were lazy then, as they are now, and don’t want to do their own work of self-mastery.

So if I have to keep going up this mountain alone just to be able to deal with all the needs of the people, I need your tithes so I can take care of me and my tribe, while I also care for the tabernacle of God, which ye are.

Physician Heal Thyself

This false perception that leaders, especially religious and spiritual leaders, have to be non-confrontational and perennially hospitable is manifesting as physical illness in many of us, and even causing the premature deaths of some.

We, the healers, have to stop judging ourselves based on an image projected upon us by people who are often unwilling to do for themselves what they expect us to do for them. Sometimes we need to pull a Moshe, and smote the rock twice. Sometimes we need to be Eliyahu, and fall fire down from heaven.

They fucked us up with the whole “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends” bullshit. NO! We are only to love our fellow as ourselves. I have endured kidney disease for just short of thirty-one years trying to uphold an image.

I AM a healer gotdamnit! To be the master healer I AM, I have to achieve the integrity of my own soul, and people pleasing will cost you your whole soul. Hell, I have hurt family and friends trying to satisfy the same crowd who hollers “Hosanna” at me on Yom Roshon, but by Yom Revi’i are screaming “Crucify him!”

Mom has had to watch her son endure the trauma of 158 surgeries, and all because I fought my own soul for so long. I understand now why, in understanding her name derives from Mary, I often sing in my mind the song “Mary Did You Know?” when I AM thinking about our relationship.

It’s time to fulfill the old proverb “Healer (physician) heal thyself”. I refuse to allow disease to rule over me any longer just because someone perpetuated a false image that a messiah is for the idea that it is better that one man die for a whole nation. NO MOTHERFUCKERS!! EVERY man must die for his own sin.

From now on, I AM living my best life. I ain’t going back and forth with you niggas. And by “niggas” I AM not meaning anything racial at all. It is applicable to all those I have allowed to prostitute my energy and my gifts. You gotta problem with that? Here, hold my safe word: FUCK YOU. As far as your miserable ass energy, RETURN TO SENDER. We don’t do that here.

I Need God and It Needs Me

We all need God. The problem is just that It never departed from us. Society just tricked us into believing It was something other than our true selves, and we lost our own souls conforming to the world’s ideal of God and truth. The fullness of God is the perfect balance of the self: the I AM that I AM.

Nature is the only infallible word of God made flesh. Your soul (nishmah) is your true nature. Yet to satisfy the whole world (kol ha’olam) you forsook your nature. Why? Only to become a culture, a religion, a political affiliation, a phobic, and a judge of men?

Repent. Turn back to the God within you by putting off who and what your family, religious ideologies, friends, schools, cultural groups, and governments told you to be. True salvation is freedom from judgment. True salvation is perfect love; for self first, then for all others.

Just Be Yourself

If you identify as Jewish, whether you believe you are a descendant of Ya’akov or a convert, conduct your life according to your own understanding of what it means to be a Jew. Remember that goyim are just nations, and Yisra’ēl is also a nation. Do not, however, seek to impose your Judaism upon any other.

If you identify as Christian, live how you are convinced a Christian is supposed to live. You should only expect others who also choose your exact same brand of Christianity to believe and act as you. You made the choice for yourself to become a Christian. It is not who you were born. You are not free to judge another for not becoming what you have chosen to become.

If you identify as Muslim, be the Muslim you believe you should be according to your own understanding. It is not your right, though, to seek to annihilate any others because they have chosen another path than you towards enlightenment.

The point is that, whatever you identify as, if it is part of any group identity, you are simply conforming to a compartmentalization that someone else invented. The only thing any of us were born is ourselves. Until someone told you that you were something else, you were not. And you still had to accept that other person’s label to even perceive yourself as such.

Whatever you identify as, whether as self-aware or as a member of any particular group, you are responsible for finding your own path within that, and because within those paths, every is seeking acceptance in place of significance, everyone desires for everyone else to agree with what they think of themselves. Love doesn’t accept because of your alignment with what it believes. Love accepts in spite of how different you choose to be from who it chooses to be.

How is it that My Soul Smiles

I hear all the time how infectious my smile is.

But how does my smile even shine through?

How do my eyes reflect honesty when I have lived a lie so long?

Behind my infectious smile, and honest eyes was pain.

Pain from a childhood trying to please others, and feeling like a failure.

Pain from the days of my youth when I harbored so much shame.

But why shame? How failure? When I was the kid everyone desired.

To the community, I did no wrong, but within my immediacy I did no right.

Despite the scars from my past, my soul often found a way to smile.

Yet, when I look at me now from then, I see the pain that others couldn’t.

It was never that I wasn’t a good photographer.

It was that when I was taking my picture alone, I felt no reason to smile.

When you look at my pictures, what do you see?

Do you see the joy I gave everyone else?

Or do you see the torture of criticism?

Or is the sensation of disappointment?

Today, though, I choose to hug me in sincerity.

I choose to give myself the peace I never thought I deserved.

I choose to no longer be bullied or judged.

So that I can see my soul smiling like the others who were ignorant of my heartache.

Because today, I decided that I deserve to be infected by my smile more than anyone else in the world.

So, I acknowledge my trauma.

I acknowledge it and forgive it.

I acknowledge it and accept it.

I acknowledge it and heal it.

Through tears.

Through memories of hurt.

Through recollections of ridicule.

And at the end of it all, I hug myself, and I smile.

I smile like I AM the happiest, healthiest, wealthiest man on earth.

I smile like a man free after being wrongfully imprisoned for forty-six years.

I smile like one who had lost his own soul, and found it once again.

I smile for me, and I AM willing to share this smile with all who desire it.

A Conversation of Affirmation Between Todd and Little Todd

I congratulate me for achieving my present level of self-mastery.

I AM so proud of myself for manumitting from other people’s opinions.

I AM in love with my body for being here for me to experience this life for these moments through all challenges and obstacles.

My mind is perfectly at peace, and I appreciate it for giving animation to my body.

I love how dope my soul is for the magick it emanates to give me everything I desire in abundance.

Divine right action is always taking place in my life.

Only good comes from each experience.

It is safe to grow up.

I AM perfect as I AM.

I AM not obligated to satisfy any standards set for me by anyone else.

I AM beautiful beyond compare.

The love I have for myself is completely sufficient, and I have no need for the acceptance of my peers.

I do not have to tell myself no.

The Universe is abundant with all of my wants and needs.

There is no greater achievement than my own happiness, and I need no one else to agree with me.

I deserve all of my heart’s desires, and they are rapidly manifesting for me because out of my own heart flow the issues of life.

I AM in competition with no one, not even who I was yesterday.

I AM victorious in all my intentions.

I don’t have to pick what others want for me.

The rules don’t apply for me.

There is no one who can judge me, not even a god.

My father loves me unconditionally according to his level of understanding.

My mother loves me unconditionally according to her level of understanding.

My love for others is not defined by any material gifts I give.

My intelligence is personal and unable to be measured by any other being.

I don’t have to have siblings to be complete.

I don’t need girls to like me to be significant, and they are not right or wrong for their feelings towards me.

I belong, because I AM divinely connected.

I forgive myself for not measuring up to the perceptions of others.

I forgive all others for projecting their perceptions onto me.

I AM free to say no to anything I do not want to do.

I have nothing to fear.

I AM free to explore the world as my soul chooses.

Don’t Call Me King

Do you realize that in the context of time, both government and religion are brand new? The earth is literally millions of years old, and The Universe, in its present alignment, likely trillions. Government and religion, which are both just forms of law, are only several thousands of years old.

What you view as religion is just a clever disguise for human governments. In order to limit the risk of revolt from the populace, men blamed gods for instituting what was reality these men’s own will over the people.

To further solidify this agenda, these men even began to write mythos which they passed off as the word(s) of these invisible gods. It was a brilliant plan, and now most of the world has bought into it.

Kings are individuals who rule over other individuals. So, a kingdom is the rule of a king (or queen). There is one individual who exerts his or her own desire upon all the people, and it is usually reinforced with threats of incarceration or death (either temporal or eternal).

So, before humans became consumed with their egos, and decided they could decide what was right and wrong for all of humanity, there were no laws. Laws became the result of the men and women holding others responsible for their feelings about themselves, and life.

Kings and queens rely on subjects for their significance and validation, and that is the problem in the world today. Kings are lords and masters, but above their own laws. That’s the general hypocrisy of humanity in 2019. Humans want everyone to give up their freedom while they maintain the liberty to do what they please.

Americans are the epitome of this reality, even as much as they despise the concept of kingdoms. In gaining independence from Great Britain, the consensus was on religious freedom, and escape from what they viewed as tyranny, yet each time an individual tries to legislate right or wrong, whether from a political or personal standpoint, they become tyrants themselves.

EVERYTHING now regarded as right or wrong, and deemed legal or illegal began as the personal feelings of one individual, and that individual convinced others to obey him. Even to say the KINGDOM of God is within you is subliminally keeping you indoctrinated to this idea that someone is ruling everyone else, and there is an established order that all must align with.

So to further the subjection of the citizens, heaven was invented as a reward, and hell as a punishment. This is what kings do. They either promise you favor for your allegiance, or threaten you with punishment for your rebellion. None of it is consistent with nature, but those same men have you convinced that without laws, humans would be out of control.

The truth is that what is viewed as out of control, is really just someone a ruler (whether verifiable or self-imposed) is unable to overpower and subdue. Nat Turner was called out of control. Dutty Boukman was called out of control. Joan of Arc was called out of control. All were labeled such because they refused to bow to tyranny.

I AM no one’s king. Even as a father, I AM not here to rule anyone. I don’t need to dominate anyone else to be validated. I AM a god. My sufficiency is wholly within me, and embracing my own distinct significance is the key to my happiness.

Laugh a Little

You know what I recently learned about myself? In my quest to free all from judgment, I had a habit of judging people for judging others for living their lives as they choose.

No one had to tell me I was doing it. It just became evident to me as I spent time self-reflecting. That is a behavior that is not consistent with who I define myself to be, so I had to change it.

What I realized too is that in my disdain for people judging other people, I was robbing myself of some laughter. I would see posts sometimes where someone was making a joke about something someone else said or did, and my mind went to condemn them. That’s not freedom.

Today, I allowed myself to allow others to be as they choose to be. If they choose to live in judgment of what others do differently than them, that’s their right, as long as they don’t cause physical harm to anyone else.

A lot of stuff that we tend to deem offensive, really isn’t offensive at all. We just want everyone else to perceive everything as we do, and too often, we miss out on opportunities for laughter trying to keep people from speaking their mind.

People are funny. Not in a demeaning way. People just say and do some things that are really harmless when we remove their power over our emotions.

Healing for Real

Injuries are true conditions of the body, while diseases are conditions of the soul. While we cannot control everything that happens to our bodies, we are the only ones responsible for our souls’ discomfort. Our souls’ diseases also transmute into diseases of the body.

Many of the diseases we incur are a result of the foods we choose. Even when discovering what food choices have contributed to our diseases, we still have to do the work of healing the underlying factors within the soul. The soul is the above that is manifested in the below, which is the body. In the ancient east they perfected the healing sciences over several millennia, and in the modern west, they introduced the world to medical practice. We, as a society, have labeled the divine sciences as new age, and thus only because they have been suppressed for so long, in order to promote the practice of medicine (sorcery).

Medicine is about neglecting our accountability, and surrendering accountability for our health to another master. It’s time we get back to the occult (hidden) sciences that bring about Tikkun Nephesh (healing of the self), which leads to Tikkun Olam (healing of the world/the whole).

Self-Love is not Selfish

True healing provokes a level of love for all that is infused with mercy and forgiveness. When we are truly healing, we recognize that everyone has been bamboozled, and all of us need to experience repentance. Repentance is a return to the sovereign god within us all, not to a personified, legalistic god. Healing brings about our manumission. It’s not a freedom from one system just to cling to another set of rules, but a liberty that empowers us to each be totally transformed by the renewing of our minds; made new again, as they were at birth. It’s from this place that you don’t desire anyone else to lose just so you can win.

Most people, however, only awaken their egos. They finally identify the pain they have endured, and want to cast blame on someone. These people never heal because they don’t contain forgiveness in their hearts. Their own victimization causes them to want to victimize someone else. They want vengeance on their oppressors. They seek retribution from their perceived enemies. They want to punish those they feel took advantage of them. Oftentimes, they punish others who remind them of the people they hold responsible for their hurt. This is why restoration and salvation still are distant to this world. It was ego that brought about division, and even created the veil which for most remains between divinity and humanity, and ego continues to breed chaos today.

It’s not self-love to just become aware of your own happiness with no concern for the happiness of others. Though none of us is master of another’s emotions, we still cannot, in truth, love ourselves and not care at all about how our decisions and actions affect how others feel. That’s not self-love; that’s selfishness. Selfishness has no place in 5D earth. If it means someone else has to suffer hurt as a result, you’re deceiving yourself to suggest you deserve it. Nothing you deserve in love, leads to the real pain of someone else.

Personal Accountability

Other than my favorite Audre Lorde quote, likely the most influential quote I have ever heard is one my brother, Ron Mosby, often proclaims. “Life is hard. Death is easy. I AM responsible.” Though Ron is an elder in the Christian belief system, this quote could be accredited with my personal strength to walk away from religion.

Every reminder of this idea fortifies my resolve to pursue knowledge (science), even within the pages of scripture. For many, it is just easier to say things like “God works in mysterious ways”, “You don’t question God”, or “Our thoughts are not his thoughts”, but in my diligence (study) to show myself approved, I have found that every question does have an answer. Most people just aren’t willing to do the work to find the answer.

The difference between Moshe and Yisra’ēl was that Moshe was determined to search out the answers, and the rest of Yisra’ēl was afraid to. As a result, Yisra’ēl became subject to the law of Moshe. What we have been taught to believe about Moshe was that he prayed to an external god, but what is known is that he spent forty days and nights alone on a mountain.

In my alone time, I have studied. I have researched science, and evaluated it in comparison to my experience. What I walk away with each time is answers- answers to the questions we were told not to ask because it was supposedly “God’s” business.

I AM never again going to condemn someone else for choosing to pray about what’s happening in their life. However, no one should ever feel comfortable telling me to pray about what’s going on in my life, UNLESS by prayer you mean searching out my heart to find the solution to my problems. Especially when it comes to my health, prayer is not the answer; science is. I AM going to continue discovering the science that heals my body and my soul, because I AM responsible.

In our acceptance of responsibility for our lives, we have to be diligent (the proper rendering of “Study” in 2 Timothy 2:15) in finding the personal paths to our own restoration. If I AM to be saved from the world, I AM accountable for saving myself. The only way for me to save myself is through applied science (knowledge). If I perish, it’s going to be explicitly for the lack of applied science. That’s the reality of what knowledge is, and as it is written “Because you have rejected knowledge, I have rejected you from being my people.”

Truth is subjective. You are responsible for knowing YOUR truth. You can’t keep expecting the truth of people two thousand years ago is going to get you by. So, get alone, and find your truth. Seek first the kingdom, but never forget that the kingdom is within you.

I AM not any religion

Religions have basically been borne out of individuals telling tales of what they experienced in their time completely secluded from society. For millennia now, men and women of renown have shared with others what they learned in solitude, and rather than spend time in solitude themselves to find God for themselves, they have submitted themselves to the report of the others. So, instead of knowing God for themselves, they simply believe what someone else claimed to be true of God, essentially making the storyteller their God.

Truthfully, these men and women of renown were all left alone, and returned to tell the masses that they had met God. There was no empirical evidence to substantiate the claim, but because the people were afraid to go within, through solitude, themselves, they couldn’t deny the power they witnessed in the men and women of renown. So, their religious beliefs were an offspring of someone else’s self-mastery. The people don’t actually believe in God; the people believe in the legends about God.

While Judaism is a religion, based primarily on the testimony of Moshe from his time ALONE upon Mt. Horeb, Israel actually means “victorious with Ēl”, Ēl actually meaning power. Ya’akov wrestled with himself to find his power.

Christianity is a belief system founded on the doctrines invented by the Council of Nicaea in 325 C.E., however Christ, meaning “smeared with oil” is actually a consciousness. That consciousness is achieved, again, in solitude, as Jesus was, also finding his power through confrontation with himself in the wilderness.

Muslims are adherents to the testimony of Muhammad, but Islam actually means “peace”. I become peace as I fully embrace myself. Peace is the wholeness achieved in self-love, and true self-love emanates outward to our neighbor and every living thing.

As we do the work of self-mastery, which requires engaging the shadow self in darkness, we become one with ourselves. It is here where we find perfect love: the perfect love that casts out all fear.

America’s Problem Is… SELF-destruction

There is so much liberty in knowledge. While a belief is a hypothesis, science is the acquisition of empirical evidence to prove or disprove that hypothesis. We are slaves to belief until we do the research to find truth.

I would venture to say, the greatest problem in America and the world is belief. People rely too much on their emotions which are able to be easily deceived. The soul, however, searches out truth.

In this age, people are too lazy to do the work to find the answers. The people have given mastery of their emotions over to others, and they are too attached to others’ choices and actions. No one made any of us feel the way we do. We choose to feel as we do about everything.

The soul is love. The soul is diligent for real answers, but people snuff out the soul with the ego, because they are comfortable in their dis-ease. While the soul pursues correction and restoration; becoming one again with itself, the ego thrives on brokenness.

The ego is constantly judging every bit of information it receives as either good or evil. That judgment is completely subjective. There is no truth in it. The soul, though, will find the truth, and accept the truth for what it is. The soul doesn’t perceive facts and empirical evidence as either good nor evil.

So, in America, we have a whole population tossed to and fro by every wind of doctrine. Doctrines are nothing but subjective beliefs founded upon personal feelings. They have little to do with truth; even personal truth. This is why, even in the face of conclusive data, the average person in 2019 would rather attempt to explain away the facts to hold onto their beliefs than to adjust their beliefs to align with the facts.

People don’t want healing in 2019. Healing requires us to go deep, deep within the darkness of our souls to get truth; and once that truth is found, we have to be disciplined enough to alter our lifestyles to adhere to that truth. And most people are afraid of the dark.

You want to show yourself approved unto God? You’re going to have to be diligent. You’re going to have to investigate everything you have ever been told, and first be disconnected from the outcome, so that whatever you find out in your research, you accept it.

This is the ONLY way we will ever change the world for the better. This is the only way our Universe will ever be healed. Yes, feel the emotions, but in feeling them, be willing to admit that they are your own, and that no one else is responsible for you feeling how you do about a situation. Then do whatever you must to master your energy’s motion.

It is your rush to judge everyone else using your personal feelings that keeps you from finding the way, the truth, and the life. There is no path to righteousness in the ego. The ancient paths, which are based on science, not belief, will lead you to rest for your souls.

The Greatest Love

We often hear that there is no love like a mother’s love. From the mortal perspective, this seems like reality; however, in the sense of divinity, it couldn’t be further from the truth. In our society, it is believed that the role of parents is to instruct their children. This is a daunting task for the majority of parents because they only seek to teach their children to conform to a standard established for them by someone else.

ESPECIALLY, in the religious context, instruction is anti-love. Love seeks to understand, and accept what it comes to understand. This is why perfect love casts out all fear. Where there is a lack of understanding, fear is common. What mortals do is try to change everyone and everything to fit their ideal rather than seek to understand what is. Mortals do it with their children, with nature, and even with their concepts of God.

This is why science is so essential in consciousness. Science is just knowledge, and it comes by observation. What love does is pursues connection despite differences. Love doesn’t identify discomfort and seek to eliminate it. No! Love acknowledges discomfort, and studies it to find out how it is producing healing- healing for self, and healing for the world.

The general idea of motherly love is of correction based on a moral compass, despite the soul of the child. Love is not a map. Love is a compass. Its intent is not to lead you anywhere, but to reveal to you where you are. Every mother is perfect according to her level of understanding herself. They just haven’t been loved themselves to be able to actually self-identify, so they often love from the ego, disconnected from their own souls. The divine mother is all about nurturing the true soul of her children, WITHOUT JUDGMENT. To the divine mother, the child truly can do no wrong, because the divine mother loves unconditionally, no matter what.

Because mothers have generally not learned that unconditional love for themselves, they generally project their understanding of love upon their own children. Women many have it more difficult in achieving self-mastery in our culture because they have been conditioned to the idea that to receive love they have to meet this exceptional standard set by men. From this indoctrination, they tend to teach their sons to perpetuate patriarchy and misogyny, and teach their daughters to meet the standard to “deserve” love.

As we ascend towards restoration and healing, children have to be given the freedom to be. Not to become, or to do, but just to be; and evolve as their souls naturally mature within the liberty of their own divinity. Without observation in patience, we will never achieve this level of love. We will never achieve perfect love of self because, instead of observing ourselves sans judgment to be restored to our own souls, we keep attempting to fit our divinity into these moral standards that just weren’t intended for us as sentient beings.

So, the greatest love is self-acceptance. Then that self-acceptance is extended unto all others. Especially in those social media consumed generation, we have become quick to cut people off in fear, rather than practice the love that leads to understanding and oneness. We have been deceived into accepting the notion that karma is love. Karma is not love though. Karma is fear. It’s a lower vibration of judgment that brings correction by conformity, rather than restoration in transforming. That’s why, in love, we must not be conformed to this world (an external set of standards), but instead be transformed by the renewing of the mind (the divine government within).

That’s love! It’s the love we are to love ourselves with, and the love we are to love our neighbors with as well.

Your Soul’s Salvation

“What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, and lose his soul?” -Mark 8:36

Understand that true education is not putting information into someone, but drawing nature out of someone. Putting information in is indoctrination. The prefixes ex- and in- are what truly set the two apart. Ex, the actual root of education, is to draw out, while in, is to put into.

I love the way the Talmud explains the gestation period. It is said that an angel sits in the womb with a baby and teaches it everything it needs to know, and just prior to birth, the angel touches the baby above the lip, creating the fulcrum, and the baby then forgets everything, only to rediscover it all within itself after delivery.

We, instead, have been inundated with external information, that makes it that much greater a task to distinguish between what is genuinely us, and what is just the influence of others outside of us. Oftentimes, it is our attempt to return to ourselves (repent) amidst the mire of human governments, organized religions, and schooling that drives many to depression, schizophrenia, and other mental illnesses.

The key to healing is to cast off our conformity to the world around us, and discover the perfect love for ourselves again that casts out all fear. The ego in society seeks to convince us that failure is not living according to its standards, but the only real failure is living an entire life only to please everyone else.

So, our souls are actually righteous all along. You are not actually born in sin. You are indoctrinated into sin. Sin is truly to betray your own soul, especially in an effort to please or serve someone else. This is why the royal law is to love your neighbor as YOU LOVE YOURSELF. Sadly, we become lost trying to satisfy a kingdom apart from us, when the kingdom of God is explicitly within.

When we are consumed with meeting the standard of our indoctrination, we lose ourselves. The soul is the true self, and children maintain the purity of the soul… until adults get ahold of them, and begin teaching them to judge right and wrong. Instead of us maintaining that childlike faith in our own purity, we begin to believe that we have to do what makes everyone happy but ourselves, and it is from that mindset that our souls need saving. But each of us is accountable for working out our own soul’s salvation.

Divine Arithmetic

The first 👉🏿duty👈🏿 of sentient beings is to be fruitful and multiply. Too bad most people don’t remember that this assignment was given to one, not two, and so they make someone else accountable for their abundance.

We are not placed in this dimension to attract anything. Everything there is for us to experience must be birthed out of us. However, many of us are reckless in our gestation, then look for someone to blame when what WE give birth to comes out afflicted.

I AM responsible for EVERYTHING that precedes from me. What I practice during my spiritual pregnancy is going to influence what emanates forth from my matrix. If I don’t master my energy in motion, every fruit I produce is going to bring me sorrow.

Within each adam (earth man) is both zacar (marked one- male) and neqabah (easily pierced- female). When I walk in wholeness, the two, in one flesh, can multiply everything within me. I cannot, though, create fruit that I do not contain the seeds of.

This is why the law of attraction fails. You are a multiplier, not an adder. Even in seeking first the kingdom of God (which is within you), all things are added TO YOU. You are not added to all things. When children are added to a family, they come from WITHIN the divine feminine being. So, first discover what’s in you, and labor to deliver that.

Let God Arise

AM I the only one who found irony in the achievement of Westbrook in dedication to Ermias Joseph Asghedom? From the first time I heard Nipsey Hussle, I wondered what provoked him to choose this particular stage name, as it appeared to pay homage to one of my favorite actors and comedians from my childhood, Nipsey Russell. But then when RUSSELL Westbrook put up 20-20-20 in honor of Nipsey HUSSLE, I couldn’t help but to consider The Universe was strategic as always.

If nothing else, this whole thing has reminded me that The Universe is always conspiring in our favor. If we can get past the desire to judge good and evil, right and wrong, we can ascend back to the soul’s interconnected view. Just as the venerated Ermias Joseph Asghedom labored to achieve oneness amongst rivals, we ought to learn the lesson that only in bondage to ego is their division, but we are not slaves in fear; we are divine beings in love.

The name Ermias means “God will rise”. When we understand God is the inextricable soul within us all, we can allow God to arise, and his enemies to be scattered (Psalm 68:1). The enemies of God; the enemies of the soul are fear, hate, indoctrination, division, ego, racism, classism, colorism, sexism, homophobia, and all other attempts to judge or control that which is outside of the self. Yes, as it is written, ye are gods; but, you shall die as mortals- because you allow your ego to rule. There are some, like Nipsey Hussle, who die as gods, purely because God did arise within him. Will God arise within you?


How many of you are old enough to remember Janet Jackson’s chart-topping album “Control”? In 1986, as a thirteen year old, I remember jamming to the title track, as well as hits like “Nasty”, “What Have You Done For Me Lately?”, and “Let’s Wait A While”. Control and Rhythm Nation, in my opinion, set Miss Jackson apart as a musical artist. And don’t even get me started on her choreography.

But the word control is on my mind for reasons far deeper than this monumental album. As I type today, I ponder on how destructive control has been to me as an individual, and to our world as a whole. Control may be the one catalyst that breeds more chaos and dysfunction than any other type of energy in existence.

Now, don’t confuse the control I AM referring to with the scientific principle of control. When we use the word control in the scientific sense, we are referring to the one component of an experiment that is static; unchanged. Every other component is a variable, meaning they are interchangeable.

That control is a noun. It is a person, place, or thing that remains consistent throughout the course of research and investigation. The control I AM speaking of is the verb. I present to you control, as an effort to make decisions and decide what will happen to something or someone. This control requires a great deal of energy exertion, while remaining unable to actually determine the outcome of any scenario.

The most human thing we do as sentient beings is attempt to control that which we are not in control of, while allowing that which we are actually responsible for to be controlled and affected by external stimuli. Though the two controls I have presented are different (one is a noun; the other a verb), the two are actually interrelated. In this experiment called life, I AM the control, and everything else is a variable. As I AM the only control in my life, I AM only accountable for controlling myself. However, I must first distinguish my true self from my visage. My true self is my soul, and my soul expresses itself by energy alone.

My visage is my outer appearance and shell. In itself, my visage is a responder, and therefore is unable to be controlled. Though I can take action to influence my bodily response, I AM still unable to guarantee that response. It is possible to eat “healthy” and exercise regularly, and the body still not respond in the way I hoped. It is also possible to eat like crap and never exercise, and yet that body sustain a long, healthy life. This is because those things are out of our control. There are so many other external factors that go into how the body responds.

My emotions, on the contrary, are completely under my control. I alone can decide what will happen with them. They are connected exclusively to my soul, and as such, I can decide to remain in control of my emotions despite what others say or do. I AM powerless to control what another being does, yet I AM in complete control of how I allow what other beings do affect the way I feel. No one can make me feel any type of way.

Slavery is a system of control where an individual or institution attempts to determine the outcome of a situation involving another being. Control is unnatural, and it causes one to judge another in unrighteousness. For example, the average parent attempts to control his or her child/children. The parent believes it is his or her responsibility to form the child into what they perceive the child should be. Sadly, parents rarely take the time to observe their children in the aim of simply understanding the divine beings in their care. So, in their quest to decide what will happen to the children they have been charged to care for, they frustrate the children and themselves because they have sought to control that which they have no control over. They have attempted to break the souls (the actual control) of those children, believing themselves to be the god of the child. The god of the child, though, is exclusively within the child. It is the child’s own soul.

In this world, our neglect of responsibility for our own soul has led us to attempt to decide who is right or wrong based upon how they have “made us feel”. When others don’t fall in line with our attempt to control them, we decide that they are responsible for the chaos that ensues. The truth is that we alone are responsible for the chaos because we have given variables the authority to affect us against our will. We have forsaken our real control trying to control others, and thus, the true creative energy within us is allowed to be out of control.

Love has no desire to control. Love is liberating. Love is full of acceptance, but because we have been so conditioned to try to control the parts of our world that are beyond our control, we have lost ourselves. We have become conformed to a standard that leaves us perpetually in a state of despair, because we are attempting to create from a place of lack; lack of control. What we need to do is learn to set our intentions, while simultaneously releasing our need to control the outcome. It’s from this heart-space that we actually become accountable co-creators of our reality, and we stop being victims of circumstances. Here is where we stop attempting to punish people for being who they are, and begin accepting them as they are. Here is where we begin to open up our bowels of compassion, and take our position in the healing of the world.